I know this time you won't run

Have you found the closure you need

I will when I dig up the seed

Planted before my mind's-eye remembers

Awakened in me it hauntingly stirs

 

What drew it out of it's shell

Was it the toning of the bells

Was it the birth of your child

De ja vu to days gone wild

 

And what twisted bit of fate

Brought me to this sacred date

As I see my daughter turn four

My soul opens yet another door

 

When I was four I loved to dance

As Grandmother's eyes watched me prance

One day I slipped my hand in hers

But death had stolen over her features

 

They said that her time had come

But to me that sounded dumb

I was to young to understand

Couldn't I dance to her new land?

 

But that wasn't when darkness first came for me

Have I told you about the demons I see

Mommy into Ouija, daddy into porn

Kabbalah says I chose this story to be born

 

I guess I made one hell of a choice!

 

Is it over are you done

Why you asking not having fun

Wait there's more to it don't you see

Life's a revolving mystery

 

What's next in me to break free

Float to the surface of sanity

All I can do is let it be

Cleanse my soul's impurity

 

Is it over are you done

Not by a long shot baby!

 

In reality I don't know

What tomorrow might trigger to grow

I guess we'll just have to wait and see

Never a dull moment when you're with me.

 

~Jacqueline (Feb. 2, 2005)